it's about letting go of what could have been
only holding on to the things that really matter
Stephanie
16 in Houston TX.
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Letting go
Thursday, October 30, 2008, 11:34 AM
This is a speach from a show my mom watches, Army Wives. A guy without legs was giving it at a support group. I heard it and it really just got to me. It means a lot. So I found the episode online and wrote it down as he talked.Letting go, that's what this is mostly about. The first thing you have to let go of is worrying about something you can't control. What happened happened so take a deep breath. This is your new reality. Whatever anger and frustration, you've got to let go of that too. There's no reverse button on our lives. If there was I would go back and I would do it different. But I cant. Now this isn't going to be easy because your brain is going to keep trying to steer you off course. But the really important things, those get clear in your head. I mean it. Whatever junk you thought you needed to make your life worthwhile, that goes away. Life gets a lot more basic and a lot richer. Now the coming months are scary man. I won't say it isn't. The small changes can be scary and well... those are just the small things. It's like you started out as one person but a thing like this changes you and this whole new person starts to form but until you let go you will never realize your full potential. We were given a special challenge and what I have to keep believing is special challenges allow for something special to float to the surface. Something that I may have never known about myself if this hadn't happened. It’s truly about letting go of what could have been and only holding on to the things that really matter.
A few old poems
Wednesday, October 29, 2008, 9:10 PM
Tearing apart everything we know at the seamsErasing our thoughts, massacring our dreams!
We create monsters and say it's what we need.
One shot is not a lot when love is what we need.
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A constant time in fate
Broken, shattered are their souls
Can anyone ever fix them?
We always sought to a time in the future
Where we would never get left behind,
In out hearts though we always know,
A sick and twisted paradox it's sure to promise.
Maybe their hearts would suffice them
Every second of the crazy; hoping.
It can't ever be too far,
at least one truly believes,
Living horror or real life terror,
If you look you can always see the light.
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i cry teardrops for a friend
i pray she'll understand
this is how we all began
the same reason we all need shoulders
she yells at me;
i am worthless things.
but you are perspiring
these toxic things.
you are a toxic thing.
wouldn't you like to look
down the road?
but we have sinned and
for us you lose hope.
a peace of mind for my dear friend,
me and jesus will be there.
shake it off, it's all you can do.
we'll jump out the back window.
caged in your own mother's screams
it becomes an echo of everything.
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Silly Ghost,
goes where the wind blows.
never knew how to fly,
time passed, surfing the breeze,
sometimes way too fast,
never fast enough.
never slow enough.
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this could be described
as our matching heart necklaces.
the way we used to drive.
i couldn't let you pass me by.
and the money's still not ours
but we play by the same rules.
every day gives us a new chance
to claim what we need.
we could be described as self rightous idiots
trying to save the fucking world
one friend at a time.
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So shy, so innocent,
So lost, so misunderstood,
When will I find my way out of this maze?
When will I escape from this nightmare?
When will I find the truths of my life?
I think I've found the path...